Torah and
Christa Black Gifford’s book Heart Made Whole
“Fear and
Trust and how to live”
Tehillim
(Psalms) 16:8-11 p 500
Ephsiyah
(Ephesians) 2:1 p 883
“And you has
he made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sin.
Ephsiyah 2:6
Tehillim
139:7-11
Hearing the
word is relational
Romans
10:17
stress means we have to step back and spend
intimate time with YHUH...
Ephisyah
1:18
Intimate
relationship with YHUH guards your mind with shalom...
so you don’t
have to fear. > it will keep your imagination from running wild... (shutting
down those thoughts before they start!)... because you made a better choice!
- Camping alone in the mountains in
Oregon...
Philippians
4:7
Eyes of my
heart
Psalm 18:2
Psalm 23:1,5
Psalm 27:4
Psalm 91:4
Psalm 18:6
When I start
feeling sorry and shameful and needing forgiveness:
Prodigal son
story -
“Every tie
my heart sees the truth of this good Father within my heart, it gets easier and
easier to actually experience His love and mercy.
Philippians
4:8
“For years I
had focused on all my problems, trying to change myself through study, works,
and dutiful service. But concentrating
on my problems always left me feeling ashamed, and focusing on all my problems
always left me feeling ashamed, and focusing an all my negatives only seemed to
produce more negatives.”
“Yet, seeing
(Yahusha) kept making me more like
Him. Each night as I spent more
intentional time talking, laughing, resting, and just hanging out with Him, I
found that my heart started recognizing His abiding presence during the
daylight hours. In fact, it was as if
the overflow of our time together was spilling into everything, and as a
result, my thoughts, emotions, speech, and actions were changing - to the point
where my husband and family started to notice.”
“The more I
communed with the solution FIRST - the presence of the living God - the more
His goodness, kindness, and love began to fill up the rooms in my heart and
kick out old, unwanted tenants of fear, shame, bitterness, and anger. It was like i was being stretched and pulled
outward and upward, creating more and more capacity inside for abundant life to
keep bursting out.”
**
Rostral Prefrontal Cortex - ROPFC
left eye to
left eye... right brain emotion
Mom and
child brain synchronizes... bouncing emotional signals back and forth 6x per
second
“When a baby
looks into the face of someone who is glad to be with them, the strengthening
body delights it and its joy tank quickly reaches its capacity.... so babies
look away when overwhelmed....... as more neural pathways develop - baby can
look longer.... like being tickled too much (E
James Wilder).... it’s funny and then it’s not tolerable.
A baby who
has reached their joy capacity will break eye contact and look away, and a
responsive parent will match their emotion, waiting for the child to look back
and connect once again.
Every time
this cycle happens - they are climbing the Joy Mountain (Wilder)
where the
baby’s brain exceed capacity for joy, stimulating more nerve development in the
brain. .... as this happens more and
more - the ROPFC grows and grows with JOY.
Increasing
capacity.
The greater
your joy capacity - the easier you deal with problems.
You can only
deal with pain to the extent that you have more joy than.
You can only
deal with other’s pain to the extent that you have dealt with your own!
If the
challenge in front of you is greater than your joy capacity - then you will
react in ways you will be sorry about later!
When
challenge is greater than capacity, you can get stuck in pain instead of being
able to walk through it tot he other side.
“But if you
keep your heart connected to Yahusha building space inside for constant
relationship, - then love joy and shalom
increase... out weighing the negative emotions.
BUT many
people have a lot of unhealed pain they
are dragging around, and the JOY capacity they have left is very very small....
Graham Cooke
says, “If the enemy can’t penetrate your peace, he doesn’t know what to do with
you.”
Christa
Black Gifford in Heart Made Whole - explains that babies brains develop a lot
before birth... and after they are born ... they keep growing - unless there is
trauma...
type B - things that happened to you
and
type A - things that are absent from
you...
and then
growth can stop...and it can even decline.
“The brain
development will suffer if there has been a lack of positive emotional
stimulation for the heart.”
Christa goes
on to say:
“BUT God
created everything about us to be redeemable and renewable - especially in the
realm of our hearts and minds. We aren’t
stuck with the brain we were born with.
Our brain is neuroplastic, which
proves that our thought life can actually change the physical and
chemical structure of our brain. This is
important to understand, because
EVERYTHING
THAT WAS LOST CAN BE RESTORED”!!!!
ROPFC - is part of the brain - it knows by EXPERIENCE.
“The right
brain doesn’t hear words, but instead computes melodies, intonation, pictures,
and rhythms. Your right brain feels before it understands. Ad as it fires up
inside, it’s much faster than the conscious thought of the left hemisphere.”
“The left
brain is what allows you to speak your language and decipher the words of others. Yah created our left brains to name and
explain things - using logic analysis, and reasoning skills. It’s the seat of all language an words,
factual stories and descriptions.”
“When you
experience something, your brain believes and files it away a fact.”
“Which is
WHY - when you experience Yah, it sure gets easy to believe Him forming
concrete facts about His goodness.”
This is why
we need to be spending a lot of time in the Spirit.
So if you
have experienced life as unsafe, you MUST have/need a greater experience with
Yah - who is protector....
You have to
have more JOY (positive strength) than negative.
We have to
experience YHUH / encounter YHUH!
2 Corinthians 3:17
Galatians
5:1
But if my
right brain EXPERIENCED bad stuff - like
abuse, or physical sickness that went unhealed... my left brain locks it away
as belief... that this is how it works.
If my right
brain has known rejection then my left brain has a huge case against Yah’s
love!
But if we
are ever going to change - and believe the Truth - then our hearts need an
encounter with Truth.
We need to
know Yahusha closer than our pain!
We need to
know love greater than our fear!
“Truth is
built in a safe relationship”.... and we can have that relationship.
YHUH wants
to have relationship so much with us - He gives us a new heart of flesh and His
Spirit comes and LIVES inside us!
Christa says
“Every part of your brain that might be in a deficit because of your past can
be repaired and restored by being in relationship with someone who wants to be with you!”
This means
that no matter what trauma you have experienced... or all the trauma you have
experienced
1. Type A - things absent
2. Type B - things that were in your
life that didn’t belong
and as Caroline Leaf PhD says...
3. Ruminated on
It doesn’t matter any more because
YHUH can heal your brain and your heart!!
so....
A. Pay
attention to how YHUH is speaking to you:
1. Circumstances
2. The Word
3. Other believers
4. What you hear - internally and
externally
5. What you see
B. “Meditate” on His Word... in order to
encounter His Presence
C.
Consider your capacity - is it filled with old
hurts not healed, or is it full of shalom so that you have the mercy to deal
with circumstances that come up in your life?
D. Consider - if you can heal... if your brain
can change and be transformed by the it’s renewing... are you willing to do
this - or continue to do this?
Christa
tells an amazing story of a vision with Messiah she had while mourning the
death of her infant daughter.... and in it... she is angry... and then
collapses in Yahusha’s arms... and
then... she realizes that He is angry... and this is what He said...
“Feel my scars... Feel my side.... Who do you think could possibly possess more
fury for your loss than Me - the One who bled so that she could live? Who could be more angry about her death than
ME... the one who suffered and died so that it wouldn’t happen!”
Now put that
in your story... the story of your hurts and rejections and injustices you have
received...
We live in
a place where hasatan is the prince of
the air....
and bad
things happen. disasters happen.... death happens... rejection happens... pain
past what we think we can bear - happens...
But Yahusha
came and lived and died and rose...
So that this bad stuff would be
overcome!
What if we
saw all of our hurts like that ?
that
Mashiach hurts more than we do?
Even though
Yahusha has the victory....
the battle
rages for now....
Remember a
few weeks ago - I taught about the anger of Yahusha.... righteous anger....
and maybe
our righteous anger is important.
The Word
doesn’t say don’t be angry - it says don’t sin in your anger.
You see we
have created a very distorted picture of Mashiach (Messiah)... based on the
lies we believe... based on our miserable and disappointing and painful
experiences...
and that
picture says Messiah is far away... so far away in fact - that He will do
things for other people, but not for me.
And our
distortion has completely lost touch with reality - ... that he became flesh - and He can relate to
every emotion we have. ...
He feels our
pain... and knows exactly what we need when hurt tries to destroy your hearts
Christa
writes...
“[Yahusha’s] intention for us as believers is never to suppress the truth of our emotions
and put on fake religious smiles, attempting to deal with very natural feelings
on our own.”
“When life
hurts, we hurt just as He did - and that’s simply okay.”
“He never
wants us to beat up our hearts as they bleed, kicking our emotions to the side,
quoting Scripture at them in anger, or willing ourselves to change.”
Pain brings
deepest brokenness, and a hurting child always wants to run into the consoling,
safe arms of a loving parent.”
“Feeling our
pain doesn’t prove that we lack faith - it proves our need for constant
connection with YHUH.”
Yahusha
taught us...
He sweated
blood.
He wept, he
sobbed and he groaned.
He was sad.
As we decide
to feel everything.
We don’t
have to carry the emotion by ourselves to heal our own hearts...
She goes on
...
“Wholehearted
living doesn’t mean living void of pain.
It means being so alive in every moment that we’re also able to stay
present without trying to escape - even when everything hurts like hell. But the only way to accomplish this is to learn
to be with someone inside of that pain - Someone inside of that pain - Someone so strong that He takes the pain
and exchanges it for constant comfort, healing, counsel, hope and love.”
Definition
of JOY according to Christa = “Someone's
glad to be with me.”
Yahusha
never expects us to be happy because of trauma!
The awful
won’t ever make us happy...
but
happiness doesn’t come from that....
Happiness
comes from the one you are in relationship with!
“Each day as
my heart would scream to be numbed, I would turn around and face the
truth.
Christa
writes,
“Each day as
my heart would scream to be numbed, I would turn around and face the
truth.
And the
truth is, I was in agony, not knowing how to survive the death of my
daughter. I would close my eyes and see
my bleeding heart - mangled, torn and full of pain -- knowing that without the
right medicine, that pain could turn into disease like bitterness, distrust,
despair, and unforgiveness. So instead
of ignoring my heat as it screamed, I would intentionally hand it over again
and again to my best friend [Yahusha].”
“In those
moments of surrender, I learned the unfathomable power of raw acceptance and
confession!
and she said
she prayed... something like...
“this is
where my heart is today and it is a mess.
I am not going to condemn it for being a wreck, beat myself up, try to
heal myself, or force myself to change.
I’m going to accept that if this is where I am today -- wounded and
broken - then you will meet me right there in my pain and begin to heal me with
your love.”
...
and worry
comes - as we are functioning so well in the battle...
worry and
fear... ideas or pictures of my loved ones getting hurt....
“Remember
argument in 2 Corinthians 10:5 are thoughts that haven’t yet become beliefs and
strongholds are beliefs that have rooted within the heart.
So we have
to immediately renounce it repent of it and declare the truth...
Fear and
bitterness can’t take root in our hearts so long as perfect love reined.
I John 4:18
So when we
hurt... over and over again we have to make a choice to turn TO Yahusha!
“For decades
my goal was to avoid pain at all cost.”
She writes.. doesn’t that sound like the world?! And ourselves!
“The hell of
the experience is miraculously bearable when the kingdom of heaven when the
kingdom of heaven is alive within my heart.”
~
So we have
to feel the emotion /PAIN with Yahusha.
“So take a
moment with the hurt.... breathe
deeply.... and practice the art of raw
acceptance.”
“Accepting
that you are without shame.... will
change everything about your life.”
